7/31/2008 12:54:00 AM
zzz
my colleague asked me a every sensitive question today. he asked if my mother and my love one fell into the rive who will i save? i paused for a second pondering...if i save my love one i and not save my mother not forgive myself because no other women can replace my mother...if i save my mother i will go crazy missing her like how i do now! so i replied him i will save my love one first and then die with my mother. why? without my mother there wouldn't be me and sometimes i force myself to believe that if there is a girl who have captured my heart and i strongly love i will want her to be happy thinking perhaps there are even better guys out there who can make her smile brighter.
seriously i wanted to go down see just to see her but i am afraid i don't know why. i felt like i'm hiding from her. my friends are behind my back but i'm just too afraid. strangly this is the 2nd time i had feelings like this. Argh~! ala damn it! maybe we really are not meant to be. it's true that a relationship takes 2 hands to clap but the other 1 is not so maybe this is fate or maybe it's cow dung.
seriously i wanted to go down see just to see her but i am afraid i don't know why. i felt like i'm hiding from her. my friends are behind my back but i'm just too afraid. strangly this is the 2nd time i had feelings like this. Argh~! ala damn it! maybe we really are not meant to be. it's true that a relationship takes 2 hands to clap but the other 1 is not so maybe this is fate or maybe it's cow dung.
7/27/2008 09:57:00 PM
zzz
went dinner with mum at Chong Pang had crab for dinner! slept around 7pm ytd after work all the way till this afternoon. still feeling feverish! drunk lots of liang cha but still useless! head spinning! lots of stuff running through my head now. you, job, friends, and so on.... it nv stops.
maybe it's time for me to think about myself, ever since you've cared for others, who has been caring for you other then my parents. now i'm beginning to hate my life. i've not been appreciating things. damn it! i can't stop thinking about you... i felt messed up ever since you're gone, you've pierce a knife through my heart. it's bleeding ever since...i miss you
7/24/2008 01:46:00 AM
zzz
sales went bad to worst since monday. improvements need to be made in convincing clients. did very bad a sin today. everytime i step into the illegal jackpot room i never bet but today out of sudden i ask my friends for a game. spinned and lost 50bucks! actually i wanted to leave went i am winning like 20bucks but too paiseh to ask the guy to cash out 20, ego killed me! i swear i'll never bet again! guess what my mum text me today while i'm working, she asked if i want to work in her office. should i or should i not? argh~ i want to settle down! again today i miss you.
7/20/2008 05:13:00 PM
zzz
speechless...seeing wencheng sad these days kinda feeling down these days too.
reminiscing about the past...too far too late. dreading for a brighter day to come by.
but for now drowning is the best method. everyday we were blind by the mist trying so hard to find a way out.
the way we miss the way we handle things are by extreme ways, extreme ways we've tried, extreme ways we've gone. argh fark~! i don't know what i'm blogging! living in a coma will be a better way of living through life. god blast us
7/19/2008 04:22:00 AM
zzz
i hate being sick! still insist of going work determination ruled over me. thats good somehow. reached home round 10 after OT. friends asked to dbO in the end bathed and fell asleep! somehow my wencheng managed to get into my room and wake me up lol! reach dbO at around 1am music was great had 2 shots and headed to the dancefloor, went to nana after that. saw miss idiot but she didn't see me haha was just beside you idiot! haiz nvm it's sour. surprisingly we went home early! feeling so sick! i need medicine!
7/17/2008 07:51:00 PM
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met up with xun and her cousins yesterday night with wencheng over at prata. lol our conversation was like spiking one another, was like
xun: "eh wah nv go to the bugis pub find the dunno what girl drink ar"
ly: " you never go your discovery find your mrThai guy ar"
the conversation continues...
after that went to Loyang to pray, felt kinda release after praying.
haiz history always repeats itself......................
7/16/2008 01:06:00 AM
zzz
work work work work...forget forget forget forget...i'm tired!
7/13/2008 05:40:00 PM
zzz
in the past few years i'm blinded by love,
through hurt, pain, jealousy and sorrow i've gone,
pain killers doesn't work.
and now,
i've learned my lessons.
it's ok i'll be fine one day.
too bad i'm not the right one,
memories will always be a memory,
just like a nightmare,
it'll haunt you everynight.
i'm scared.
will you enter my world and comfort me?
GUESS NOT!
Labels: GUYS LIKE ME IS A LOSER
7/12/2008 03:22:00 AM
zzz
7/07/2008 06:50:00 AM
zzz
for most problems there's it's own solution.
- if ill, go see a doctor.
- if broke, find a job.
- if robbed, call the police.
- if hungry, go to the kitchen.
- if dead, report to the grave.
- if losing his mind because of someone he loves, however there's no standard solution exists....
7/05/2008 09:07:00 AM
zzz
Bonnie and Clyde.
Romeo and Juliet.
for love they died...
by fate we can't be...
tears are the gateway to a soul,
within them contain the emotions.
wrote your name in the sand,
washed away by the sea of yours.
i couldn't help but smile watching you slipping away,
trying to find the saviour to hide my emotions.
wasn't the first time i'd made such a journey,
i'm so near yet you're far from sight.
i closed my eyes and try to see what happened between us.
trying and guessing which heart belongs to you,
now i know and i always knew about it.
once so close and now so far.
just like the waves will wash your name from the sand,
my tears will wash your kisses from my cheek.
yet i do not wish for these tears to roll down my cheeks,
for they're the kisses from you and the short special memories of us.
but this is all i can do,
keep trying?
what else can i say,
because of you…
Labels: Just like Bonnie and Clyde; Romeo and Juliet by fate we can't be...
7/04/2008 05:28:00 AM
zzz
"Love is where the Heart is," and i've been missing my heart so. it's sorrow is as sweet to me as a rare wine. am i out of her league? some say fortune rewards the bold. sadness,loneliness avoidance,liar and a players' heart are neither are traits that i hold in high regard. i may have been over sensitive when i said i wasn't, but i try to live in the now where the ghosts of old wrongs do not abide, the past always haunts. now i've fallen in love without hesitation and i took my heart my everything with along. my heart led the way and i followed now i've died in your arms. i've underestimated the angel of love, i've underestimate her greatly. i love u, i'll run the longest marathon to reach for your heart, i'll walk you through the darkest alley, i'll shelter you from the tears in your eyes, i'll protect you from the evil deeds of love, i'll steal the prettiest flowers from the Eden of heavens jut for you, i'll buy you the sweetest KinderBreno. all these just because of you my favourite of all favourites. in the name of love. i love you! i will adore you! most of all i miss you! cuz you're my idiot!
7/02/2008 10:00:00 PM
zzz
meet u with rene and yenny at Great Word then to her tattoo shop end up at graxs. she told me alot of things! end up at BQ. while on way home KC called ask me to Nana, went there just to see you. lol Dave gave u flowers. bad things happened last night stupid argument with dunno some graxs customer. but well i don't care. at least i get to speak my heart out to Miss Idiot.
Labels: DAVE LEARN TO CHILL AND LISTEN
